American Beauty – A memorable quote

I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me… but it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst… And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain

You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry… you will someday.

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Deception Is Hell

Here they appear again

the demons, they envelop the brain

Confusing any ounce of sanity that used to be naturally present

Distortions of visual images

Distortions of sound vibrations in the air

oh, hell!

If there’s such a thing as hell

it needs to be this

A deception of the real world

A blockage to function

Unnecessary triggers and gradual increase in amplitude

Weakness in the reality;

Rightness in the wrong;

Believing in the non-existent; believing in the lies.

Deception is hell.

A form of psychedelia.

Be vigilant.

Fight against all odds.

Believe.

Anjuna

The Innocence in Me

One of my favorite songs is Enigma’s return to innocence  

That will be the return to yourself

The return to innocence

There’s so much meaning and fulfillment that I receive from the song, it’s hard to explain exactly what I feel or to put it in words. But it will not stop me from trying.

I guess it’s because there’s a deep sense of innocence in me which is yet to be untapped. This innocence I feel is pure and cannot be corrupted even under the influence of the most corrupt. It is a feeling of purity, a sense of fulfillment. It reminds me that I do not have to try to be anyone else, but what I am and how I feel is enough to gain what I want out of life, being myself is good enough to make people like me for who I am – and it works every-time.

Whenever I try to be something I am not, whenever the feeling of restlessness kicks in and I do something I am not too proud of, I know it is because I am not my true self. The innocent self within me will never lead me astray. It’s about being human with all our joys, sorrows, difficulties and just being true to the way we feel – whatever it may be. That is what makes me a beautiful person and all the beautiful people I have met seem to have the same attribute of letting their innocence show. It’s when we are afraid or terrified of something that the innocence is hidden. It’s still there but it requires confidence. It requires brevity. It requires understanding and enlightenment. The first notion that appears in someone’s mind when I say the word “innocent” is that of a child – yes, children are innocent but you do not have to be a child to maintain this innocence. Innocence or being a good person embodys everyone regardless of age or substance. The innocence I am mentioning is that of a more mature innocence than that of a child. A child might be innocent because he or she is not aware of everything around them and have not been told. But the innocence relevant to this blog article is that of a mature innocence where people know (say about sex or alcohol or abuse) and yet remain innocent.Yet remain to be on the good side. Yet remain to be transparent in the way they perform actions.

This transparency and this innocence is a result of truth. Truth is the main attribute needed to achieve this innocence, the innocence required for us to trust ourselves, for us to return to our own innocent self – truth is the pathway. As much as I try to be my innocent self I cannot help but understand that judgement does not go hand in hand with innocence.

Love is acceptance without judgement – and what else is love? If not innocence. Trying to be someone you are not will never lead you to the right path. Remember this. You can only be you. You can only find innocence within yourself. Only then will the rest of the world become available to you. This is a rule I need to live by and I need to repeat to myself everyday as much as possible. I have only stepped into the realm of innocence a few years ago and it is time to develop that innocence within me to achieve the impossible. To be truly happy, not just with myself but with everyone else around me.

Any feedback in the comments section is appreciated. 

The Power of A Smile

Let’s smile a little more.

So that we receive love from those who love us

So that the daffodils bloom a little brighter

So that we can all rejoice and come together

Smile for the love of life; for life itself can be beautiful

Much like this poem, conception from the conceived

Conception from the mother of all smiles

Smile to touch lives

Smile to give and take

So, smile a little more

Bloom a little more

Smile gravitates the world, much like Earth itself, like the cosmos

Carpe Diem – Sieze the day, the month, the year

to make a lifetime of smiles.

🙂 🙂  (A smile from me to you)

Contentment

Part 1

There was a deep sense of contentment in him. He wasn’t married, hardly ever had a girlfriend, he was a 27 year old virgin. Yes, he’d had relationships of course but they never were successful enough to last. That was one of the sorrows he’d endured. He knew he would find someone. Maybe he would have to wait a long time, longer than most of his friends who were already married or had someone and were definitely not virgins. He had attracted all the things that had happened in his life. So, really, he had no one else to blame. He created his own life.

But nonetheless, he was satisfied. Very frighteningly satisfied with who he was. He could drink a cup of coffee, sit with himself for hours, go to a museum and still feel completely happy and joy for the way he lived his life. He was content but felt a pang of loneliness. Loneliness not because he felt lonely, but because of what other people might perceive him to be. He cared a lot about other people.

He had a dark past. The future he knew would get a lot better. He had amended his mistakes for the sins he had committed. Even though he always had problems with maintaining relationships he knew he would get there. Get to the place where most people feel happy in sharing secrets, sharing their life with others. He had a sense of hidden satisfaction, where he didn’t feel the need to share things with other people. He only had to share things with himself, and that made him happy. However, he still wanted to get married, he still wanted to have a wife, a soul-mate, SOMEBODY to call his own! Often he would sing the song “Can anybody find somebody for me” but only in the 4 walls of his room.

There she was. His soul-mate. He knew it, the minute he laid eyes on her that she was the one. They met by accident. But he had to wait, and waiting was something he detested. He hated waiting. I mean, who likes waiting? He had to make the right moves this time. He had to see that it works out.

Lets see what happens in the part 2…….

Unrequited Love

ul2He’s in the room! She feels a kind of shiver go through her spine. All around her body this jitter of nervousness. Her stomach gets a bit sick looking at him, she’s been waiting to see his face the entire day. All she can think, feel and do surrounds his aura.

He notices her too, but nonchalantly pretends to be busy with other things. Her sick obsession makes him wonder, why me? Why cant she just be normal around me like she is with other people, for instance the way she is with her friends? I like her as a friend, nothing more. I dont like her the way she likes me, not in the same way because I already have Alisha my childhood sweetheart.

She goes up to him! Her feelings blinders her. “Do you happen to have notes for Doolittle’s class” she asks him! James gives her a classmate smile, tells her he doesn’t have the notes, hoping she’ll take the hint.

She makes a sad face but takes the hint. She’s tried so hard, yet he’s been so distant. Maybe its time to move on, she thinks. Time to avoid ‘Too good for her’ James.

A few months later, another fish in the sea happens to like her and they get together. Plenty of fishes in the sea, they talk about James and laugh at the foolishness.

Obsession over unrequited love is one that can affect anyone. Probably everyone of us has experienced some kind of rejection. Some kind of break up.

It takes time to move on, but its possible. Keep hope alive!

Plenty of fishes in the sea! There really are.

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New Romance – A poem

You look at me, I notice

We share a moment, you know this.

There is a romantic tension between us, you like it.

Finally it’s your chance to make a move and at someone like me!

Someone you’ve waited all your life, someone who fits your rules and regulations

Someone who’s good enough for you

Someone who’s beautiful, of course I’d say I’m beautiful

It’s not just me who says that I’m beautiful, you know I’m beautiful.

You want me

You try hard

I smile a lot at you, I lead you on, but I’m just playing.

It’s a game I like to play, so what?

You don’t know this. You think I’m genuinely interested.

Yes, but I like your  company, you like mine.

You make me smile.

Lets go have a drink

Lets go dance in a pub

Drink and Dance and get lost into the night!

That’s what I want. Some good fun.

That’s what we will do.

What are you waiting for? It’s night, isn’t it, let’s make it one to remember!

I say thank you.

I like being polite.

You like that too. I like your smile, and I kiss you lightly.

We say goodnight and go our own ways.

End of a goodnight!

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